Monday, 7 November 2011

Still Waiting..

A huge lesson that infertility or any "out-of-ordinary" situation teaches you is "patience"..In my last post I talked about how I expected my period early. Well, its still nowhere in sight. We have to plan our trip based on the day when my AF arrives, so everything is on hold, our travel plans, packing and life in general till AF shows up!

I have been keeping myself busy with "not so important" things around the house and work in general. Though I dunno why but I am particularly avoiding an annoying lady who is the mother of one of our good friends. I somehow feel she doesn't like me. Or maybe she has come to know from her daughter (my friend) that we are having trouble conceiving on our own and maybe that has made her "not like" me anymore. Or maybe all this is just in my head. Anyway I cannot stand her! Somehow the last time we met, my friend was expecting and she kept pestering me with the "when are you planning" question over and over again. When she visited our house, she asked me where do I pray?? The thing is my husband and I belong to different religious background. In India it is a big deal to follow your religious customs and prayers and most families have rituals that are done by every member of the family either together or individually. At the very least, we all say our prayers before leaving home and/or in the evening around sunset. In our house, I have a small shelf where I have kept the idols from my religion but in the main prayer room, we have idols only from my husband's faith. I am ok with this arrangement since in my religion our idols should not be kept in the open, while in his, it is ok! Also, his parents visit more often than mine and we all like to pray together in the prayer room. When my parents visit, they are ok with praying anywhere (our religion is not very strongly associated with Idol worship). So well, for us this arrangement works great!! 

She, on the other hand, an outsider, is curious about how we work things out when it comes to religious practices. I got a little annoyed at her being soo curious about things that she has nothing to do with.

I let that pass. However, this time around when we went to see her at our friends place, i felt like she was avoiding me and wasn't being as friendly as she used to be. Maybe she found out and maybe she is going to tell her daughter to stay away or keep her kid away from me or some crap like that. I don't know and I don't want to know. Its just that when people start learning things, they start looking out for their own rather than comforting those who need it. Guess this is the way it works! It doesn't bother me so much, but I would not want to entertain them or get involved with our friends while she is around. So when they invited us for dinner this evening, I just asked my husband to tell them we won't make it. I have enough things to deal with right now and I don't won't to worry about some strange lady forming an opinion about me or judging me!

Again, I sometimes feel this is in my head and maybe I should not let all this get to me. Maybe she's fine and I AM NOT. I don't know. But like I said, maybe I just want to avoid awkward moments in my life. The lesser the better!!

P.S I finally got listed on Melissa's blogroll (or the Stirrup Queen's Completely Anal List of Blogs That Proves That She Really Missed Her Calling as a Personal Organizer, as she calls it) Thanks a ton Melissa!!

Tuesday, 1 November 2011

We Are Doing Good!!

So, we got my sugar and vitamin D3 results. Guess what?? My vitamin D3 has jumped to a huge 42.8 ng/ml (from a mere 15 ng/ml)  That is huge for me!!! I was stunned to see the results since I never expected it to go beyond 20 forget making it to the 30 mark. So that was awesome! 

My Fasting blood sugar also came down to 82 mg/dl, my RE required it to be below 90 mg/dl before we go into the cycle. So that was great news as well!

So far things are looking pretty good. I think I'm beginning to develop a certain superstition that the clinic where I got my blood work done is lucky for me and my husband. We checked his sugar and cholesterol levels which were quiet high in September. His sugar is still a little off but the cholesterol has come down significantly which felt really nice.

I am expecting my period on the 5th or the 6th rather than the 7th as suggested by the RE. I am already having some PMS symptoms including nausea which is new for me. I think my estrogen and progesterone supplements are causing it. I was quiet sick on Monday, didn't eat much since I was throwing up pretty much any thing that I ate. It has come down considerably now but I am a little cramped. So well I think I should be getting my period early.

We just have a week or so left for making our trip to Mumbai. We are really excited! More because it will give us some time off and another shot at conceiving our baby. So let's see how it goes!

We have backup plans though, just in case this cycle doesn't work, we may plan to move closer to Mumbai. It is going to be a huge decision for us, but we hope in the end it will all work out for us. 

P.S I am trying to get my blog listed on the Stirrup Queens blogroll but haven't heard from Melissa yet. If any of you have any idea on how I can get it done faster, please do leave a comment here. Thanks!